Andy doesn't cry.
Andy doesn't cry. Ever.
He nods at all the people murmuring their condolences in Everwood's tiny little hall. He nods at Dr. Abbott, who comes over with a vaseful of freshias, puts them on the table with the picture solemnly, and doesn't say a goddamned word.
He nods at Edna, who's the only one not in all black other than Delia, when she says, "doc, you seem to have all the bad luck."
He smiles painfully, tightly, at Nina, when she comes over to cook dinner for him and Delia, and he thanks her quietly. She tells him, "I though the two of you could use a good meal, is all," but then clamps her jaw closed, because it was no secret that the only one in their family who could cook wasn't Andy or Delia.
He nods at people at the service.
He nods at the reverend, after the sermon, and he watches Dr. Abbott's daughter cry.
Amy comes up to him at the hall, as he's rearranging flowers so they'll all fit on the table. "I'm so sorry, Dr. Brown," she says. "I'm so sorry."
He nods at her, says something inane. Something about lovely flowers.
"He was such. He was." She looks at the picture on the table, the picture all the nice flowers are arranged around.
Andy is glad when she drifts away.
Andy wants, what he really wants, is to stare at that picture forever. Long enough that he can almost see it move, from blurry vision. long enough that he can picture it moving, smiling again.
Julia hasn't come to him in months, and that means he's not crazy. Andy hasn't ever been angrier he isn't crazy.
He nods a goodbye to people as they come and go, all to offer their condolences to him. Delia holds tightly to his hand, and actually does most of the talking.
"Thank you," she says over and over and over again, and sniffles constantly.
Andy told her in the car, "the minute you want to leave, we leave," and she nodded, but Delia's holding up and she looks okay, she looks all right. Andy doesn't think it's hurting her to be here, except what does he know about parenting? that was all Julia, Julia or dumb fucking luck, Julia, luck and--
"Andy," Nina says, "are you ready to go?"
He looks around the hall. Most people are gone, there's a less formal service - party even, except no one wants to use a word that cheery - at the diner for friends and family. He should go, they should go. Delia is sitting with Edna on a table, smelling Dr. Abbott's flowers.
The only one left looking at the picture is Colin.
"In a minute," Andy says.
Andy Brown doesn't cry. He doesn't break down.